A Very Bad Day

03/27/18, 11:16 am

I don't mean to complain, but I had such a bad food day yesterday. I didn't exercise. I kept eating. I threw up three times (still less than I used to). My lips are cracked, my throat hurts, my skin is dry. I think I'm gaining and it makes me cry and want to hurt myself. I feel like a dietitian is not going to help me. Am I really going to listen? I feel like I haven't suffered enough to get better. I feel like this is going to stay with me for a while. Maybe I'll never get out. But I'm trying to make today better. I ate around 430 calories this morning and I'm going to go for a run in an hour. Perhaps I'll make it to six miles and burn off all of my breakfast! I know this is willful but I'm going to have control today. I'm going to make myself proud. I'm not going to purge. Self restraint is key.